Schlagwort-Archive: me

Theology of the Chapel Veil

Now that I probably have your attention again, I thought I could provide a link to a text I found interesting.

This is one of the topics I am juggling around in my mind for months now. Tell me what you think about it.

I still haven’t come to any kind of conclusion. There are both arguments I find convincing that are in favor of wearing a headcover in Church/ in the presence of the Blessed Sacrament and arguments that I find convincing that say it isn’t neccessary/important/ appropriate. So any kind of input is welcome. I won’t neccessarily agree with you, but learning what others think always help me to find my own position, because I notice that I agree or disagree on some points.

Here you go: Theology of the Chapel Veil



…well, ok, this is no podcast, so silence is probably not the right word.

I was planning to write about this discussion between FSSPX- priest Gaudron and Prof. Berger. I started, didn’t like the result, and finally didn’t post anything. Also I was juggling some things in my mind, about my study plans, some private stuff, some things that are faith-related as well.

There isn’t really an excuse for not posting, but I’ll try to not let that happen again.

Losing weight

I’d have some serious topics in mind, but after a great day with a lithuanian friend (with the taxi to Mass, because her bus was late, from Mass to Starbucks, where she taught me the phonetics of lithuanian vowels…oh my, and I thought polish was difficult…and then finally off to a fun afternoon at the zoo…) I am just too tired.

People who know me might probably know that I am losing weight. 10 kg since January. And today I took my measurements and noticed that I lost a lot on the waist, tighs and even 3 cm on the hips. And that despite the bi-weekly grande caramel macchiato with soy milk 😉


Some reflections about a public disputatio/discussion between one of the most famous german theologicans, Prof. Berger, a very witty priest of our Church and a priest of the FSSPX that took place about two weeks ago might follow in the next couple of days.

Elections I

In june it is election time, there’s the election for the European parliament and also, at least where I live, regional elections. And I have a problem. I have no idea what party to vote for. I won’t vote right-wing and I won’t vote left-wing, the SPD is too left-wing already and the CDU just totally lost their profile as a christian party. The liberals (not liberal in the american sense! ) are what I would favour when it comes to economy but other than that…

Today I was at a conference organized by the liberals with Prof. Dr. Dr. Hasenhüttl (for those who can read german and don’t know him, here’s the wiki, for everyone else: he is a theologican and suspended priest who wants the celibacy of the priests to be abolished, who invited non-catholics to receive the Eucharist during a „service in catholic rite“ in a protestant church with more than 2000 people taking part and is convinced that core beliefs of christianity/catholicism like the resurrection are „symbols“…well, you get what kind of guy he is by now. Some kind of Uta Ranke-Heinemann, male version.)

What can I say…the majority of the audience agreed with him on all the points where I strictly disagree, and that same party also was in favor of a proposition to the European Parliament concerning our pope Benedicts viewpoint on condoms- they see this viewpoint as a violation of human rights. Yeah. Right.

So, no right wingers for me, no socialdemocrats, greens or „post“communists either, no CDU or FDP.

What else is there?

Learning from Jane Austen

Today I didn’t get up until 1 pm until I was awake far earlier. I was finishing my reading of Jane Austen, Sense and Sensibility, and although I am not overly happy with the translation, it captivated me. Yesterday evening and today, while reading this novel, I understood some things. Without doubt, you all know those tests on facebook and so on where you can, for example, find out which Jane Austen heroine you are. I noticed that the results were always wrong for me, because, apparently, my choices reflected more how I want to be and not how I really am (or maybe those tests just suck).

I am like Marianne Dashwood. Overly emotional, and, like Marianne Dashwoods notices in the end, it is by my own feelings that I get hurt (well, not only, but when I am sad, and people who know me in real life can tell that this happens often, this is to a large part self-inflicted pain) and then dwell in self-pity.. I’d need an Elinor who can teach me a more prudent behaviour, self-control and- maybe most important- one of the main ingredients of Jane Austens novels. It is not wisdom.

It is common sense.

When friends become strangers…

It is night, outside are some drunken guys trying to sing something that seems to be a russian song, I am tired, and discovered two things. First, three of my friends have become strangers to me, in different degrees, but they were here, and I couldn’t help but notice that there’s not much to say. We live in different worlds now, I left theirs and there is no way back. It doesn’t even bother me. And that is what shocks me.

What should shock me isn’t the fact that I have lost some friends (I didn’t really lose them. I just don’t feel connected to them anymore). It is that they are and in the past I was, too, stuck in a very tiny world that consists of drinking wine, listening to the same songs over and over again, and cracking jokes that contain something related to genitals, fecal matter or both (well I didn’t tell jokes, not even in the past, but…I wasted so much time listening to this kind of stuff…). And then…reciting of the same stories that are told every time people meet.

I am glad that there are some people around me with whom I can relate. Not many, not enough, not deeply enough, but at least it is a start.

A new beginning

To be honest: this is not my first blog. I abandoned my first one before it received any readers. Several things just didn’t fit anymore, starting with the blogs name. Maybe I’ll post a link to it somewhen later.

So, who am I and why am I blogging?

I was born in 1983 in Germany, was converted to the roman-catholic Church in 2006 (was converted, because it is not something you do like choosing a new pair of pants. It is a grace, a gift by God that you can accept or not), hold a Bachelor of Arts degree (which is totally worthless in Germany) and will go back to uni this fall. Other than that: currently discovered John Paul II „Theology of the Body“, very recently started to try living according to catholic standards when it comes to relationships and so on and noticing some remarkable changes since then. My depression hasn’t gone, but it got better.

If you think by now that this will be another catholic single girl blog: yes. Another blog by someone with emotional issues: also yes. But I am working on this one.

Still here?